WANT LIST: for my Abercrombie Model Boy

uploading these pictures so that I may remember these for my Tye. Definitely a model/actor/dancer/artist of some sort. Will upload the pictures to show you all later.

we ate candy apples!!! However, i looked like someone just ran me over... good times good fun.

PRO/CON LIST

Throwback pic. One of my first tumblr posts. Why do I STILL feel the same except for the especially shy part... ?

You grieve at the level you loved.

-unknown

(and lalanii.com is on hiatus. please see tumblr)

you lost a good one

You lost a good one

I gave you

An all excused pass to be a hot damn fool and I would still love you

Cause you gave me a ring- I accepted no stutter.

Guess I shouldn’t have cause it was too hard to love you like that

You have to love somebody conditionally so they know better than to treat you like crap…

Yes you taught me. because love is the most conditional love there is.

Guess I should have passed on the pissed off and the hot peppers

You wanted to love me 'til I wore short skirts and sweaters

Pretty school girls should know better than to

Love egregiously wild men

-that put me in categories like “WOMEN LIKE YOU”

Well, guess. What. Sweetie. Pie.

MEN LIKE YOU don’t deserve to have their lady at home because

when I was at home you didn’t know what the fuck to do with me,

but complain and give orders for me to hurry up and change

MEN LIKE YOU

don’t know how to love in color like I’ve begged you to.

And MEN LIKE YOU

that get drunk ‘til they turn blue and pass out into different universes yea

MEN LIKE YOU

should know you fuck women like me completely up… and

You lost a good one baby a good one i

cook

clean

dress

study

take care a home

i keep your heart warm

-I wasted my poems on you-

You lost a good one baby a good one i

bake

iron

organize

strut in red heels for no good damn reason

i play video games but pay bills when i need to

i’m dainty on your arm and submissive

and know how to let you be THE KING and listen

I guess I should have spoke up sooner

you lost a good one baby i

glisten

sparkle

shimmy

suck

kiss

hug

and held you tighter than your holster holds your…

dream bigger than your own conceit

and wake you up like you taught me to

no please needed

You were angry and spiteful anyway, when you had it made,

You had it made and you played me like the bitch and I stayed for an encore

You were "fix yo chili bitch." You were busting laptops and shit

it’s real sexy you don’t remember you schizophrenic

You were cage-ful and uninsightful

You made me give you my heart full…

Because rape is just sex when he owns you…

You made me swear on the bible so I told you the truth…

That he fucked me slower than you.

When you know I didn't love anyone else in this world but you

When you know I never meant to

You made me love you ‘til I turned into a blueberry smoothie

Don’t get mad I’m internet-ually artistic- you should’ve embraced it

Don’t get mad since I said I wanted to see other people

When you JUST sent me to voicemail AGAIN

when you ain't tryin' any harder to be a friend

when you know without friendship a relationship isn't

Don’t you say you did nothing

Place your name calling pity your fault falling shitty

Silly!

You’re all mad at the next man’s wit

When you had me hook line sunk flunked in every way shape and formula

Creating the reason I have yet to trust in any one person

When I need the miracle I thought you were sent from

you make me run from good people

You make me numb you make me need you you make me need you

Like a sickness like a needle like the sweet taste of remedial

Like we’re broken and can’t be fixed

You lost a good one baby, baby,

You lost a good one baby,

You know you did

You know all about this.